This is probably meaningless, but I drew the Four of Swords today, reversed. I also drew it on 7/12, but upright. Itās interesting to speculate on what that might mean, but I canāt help thinking that I need to get August to stop thinking about himself so much.
āDo you think Evelyn misses you?ā I asked as he floated horizontally on the ceiling, looking down on me.
āOf course she does.ā He flickered.
āMaybe she doesnāt. It sounds like she had a pretty fulfilling life after you died.ā
āAre you trying to anger me?ā August floated down to his feet.
āNo, Iām just trying to get you to think.ā
āI think you need to shut your gob.ā He floated closer to me, but didnāt loom over me as he usually likes to do. Outside the neighborās dog (the neighbor August hadnāt killed) started to bark, a frenzied, snarling bark. August just stood there as if frozen. The dog kept barking, louder and louder and more vicious.
āAre you doing that?ā
āYou told me to stop turning my mental power inward. So Iām not, Iām turning outward, to the dog.ā The dog yelped and stopped barking, āI just want to make you happy.ā He smiled and looked at me.
āThatās not what I meant.ā
āIt is, the cards are saying it, too. And maybe, Writer, the reason I donāt want to find Evelyn, is that I like the power I have here.ā
I turned from him, I had to hide the horror on my face, āI have to go get my stitches out today.ā
āHm, nothing to say?ā
āJust go, August. And if you ever hurt an animal again, Iām going to take up scuba diving.ā
āYouāre not funny.ā
āIām not trying to be.ā I grabbed the box of salt on my desk and turned back around. āDo I make myself clear? Get your shit figured out and stop acting like a tantruming child. You hurt one more thing and I will make sure you suffer for it.ā
He stepped back, set his jaw, and disappeared.