2/9/18
I drew the Four of Cups reversed this morning. Itās time to give a little more of myself. Iāve become so guarded from living with August for so long. The love I have to give is spilling from the cups and going to waste. Iāve resolved to tell Mal how I feel about him.
2/10/18
I drew the Seven of Wands, a card of courage, this morning, so I went to Malās trailer. He had just finished eating breakfast. He wore a black tank top and slacks, his hair was messy, still, from sleep. He smiled when he saw me and it lit up the trailer. I know heās a demon, but heās so handsome and sweet, itās hard to care.
āRebecca, good morning, Iām pleased youāre here.ā He held his hand out to me. I took it and he pulled me into an embrace. I melted, it sounds so juvenile, but I did. I was a puddle of woman in his arms.
āI want to stay here forever,ā I said. He tilted my chin up and kissed me. It was soft and sweet and spiraled into a carnal blaze Iāll always feel beneath my skin.
2/11/18
I slept in Malās trailer last night. My trailer will probably just be for work which is coming along nicely now that Iāve fallen into the rhythm of the Circus. Iāve also started to chronicle the doings of the people here. Mal says what they do for humanity is important, having it written down will be beneficial for posterity. I donāt fully understand all of what they do, but the Circus is more of a front. They do shows and stuff, but itās an easy way to travel and get access to community members, I guess. I donāt know, itās good vs. evil stuff, but not like youād think. They arenāt the evil ones. Once I learn more Iāll be able to explain it better.
I drew the Son of Pentacles today, a card of loyalty and determination. So Iāve sworn my loyalty to the Circus, I take the oath in a ceremony tomorrow. Should be interesting.
