1/27/18
August has been in the attic all day. He slept there last night, too. I drew the Seven of Pentacles for myself, but the thought of quiet reflection was nauseating, so I listened to Goatwhore and had tea.
1/28/18
āGood morning, August.ā He stood in the doorway in maroon and gold silk pajamas and bed slippers. Iād never seen him like that before. It was charming, but his visage was grim āEverything, ok?ā
āIāve just been thinking.ā He stopped and offered nothing more.
āYour card for today is the Six of Wands, victory.ā
āBut hollow victory.ā
āIs it?ā I watched him war with himself. Then he stepped forward and took my hand, caressing the palm with surprising warmth.
āIt is.ā
1/29/18
The Three of Swords reversed has sent August into a fit.
āItās reversed August, that clearly means you should NOT worry,ā I screamed as I flailed from my position on the ceiling. Hellbunny grunted something and August dropped me.
I didnāt die in the fall, Iām a little disappointed.
1/30/18
āDeath wonāt solve anything, quit complaining,ā Willow scolded. She drew the Three of Wands for me and reminded me to keep my emotional distance from August. I hadnāt told her about the Daughter of Swords, but most likely sheād read it in my face. She and Mal had stopped by on their way back from to the Circus from parts unknown. She continued:
āHave you considered trying the dispersion spell again⦠and then again⦠and every time he comes back until he canāt get himself back together again?ā
āNo.ā
āWhy not?ā
...Because things that seem futile probably are futile?