1/19/18
āGods no.ā
āWhat is going on here?ā
āI have no idea.ā
āThe Son of Pentacles means loyalty, Writer, you must be loyal to me.ā
āI drew the card for you. That means you have to be loyal to me.ā
āYou cast me into dispersion.ā
āAnd Iāll do it again.ā
āNot if I cut out your tongue,ā he lunged forward with a knife and stabbed it into the kitchen table. I smiled. He faded away.
1/20/18
I pulled Strength reversed for August today. He lifted me off the office floor and dropped me from five feet up back onto the ground. I laid there for awhile. Assessing each separate point of pain. When none of them seemed serious I moved. And then I cried.
1/21/18
āHave you ever been in love?ā August asked, contemplating the reversed Two of Cups he held in his hand.
āNo.ā
āI have.ā
āEvelyn.ā
āIād forgotten all about her.ā
A vase sailed across the room at him.
āNice one, August.ā
1/22/18
āThree of Wands, a card that speaks to the future.ā I sat on the floor, brushing Hellbunny. He purred.
āMirror, mirror, on the wallā¦ā August said as he floated above me.
āDo you think itās possible to see the future?ā
āYes.ā August unbuttoned his waistcoat.
āI wish I knew when I was going to die.ā
āDeath doesnāt stop anything.ā